Here I am …
At least what’s left on me
With my weary eyes holding on to something so unreal
With the stiffing muscle allover my tired body
All the weariness tangled and tied-up with the tiredness
Hey YOU …
Yes YOU who stood there watching me all these times
Do YOU know what all of these means ??
Why everything had to happened all at once ??
Can’t YOU see that all these changes had dragged me in to ??
Don’t YOU realize I’ve drained my tears for all the pain I’m into ??
… .. .
Though at last my eyes will close
And I can inhale the breath slowly
With all the hopes fly as I exhale
Hoping to reach the end of all these asphyxiates condition
Then …
Only by then …
I will passed everything
Then reach the peaceful state of peacefulness
But then …
I might start to hide behind all my dreams and imaginations
That will drawn me into the dark side of it
Lost in the poignancy of my dreams
Then maybe …
Reality might strike me
Make me crawling back to the state of the awareness
Make me stretching my hands to reach YOUR glow
The glow that always out of my reach
I will go berserk
I will scream my lungs out
Yelling my angry words to YOU
Aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!
Don’t YOU dare leave me like this !!!!
Don’t even think to left me in this darkness !!!!
I need YOUr glow !!!!
Give me YOUr glow !!!!
… .. .
Hey YOU …
Look deep into my eyes
Deeply search in it
Tell me what YOU find in there ??
Can’t YOU see who really I am ??
What YOU have done to me ??
Why YOU made me get through all these changes ??
Made me into something that’s not really me
Can’t YOU still find me ??
Know me ??
Even noticing me ??
After all that YOU have done to me ??
… .. .
In the deep of the un-glowing poignancy
And in the silent of the empty soundlessness
Where I’d be drowning into the stillness of the dark
Hoping to see the glow
Waking up from my dark dreams
Open my eyes widely
Breathe my breaths freely
Screaming as loud as I can be
I WANT TO BREAK FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this is just a part of the history that lays behind before the glowin69low .. a translation from one of my old poems in BAHASA INDONESIA
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